I have had a bit of a wake up call tonight.
I had a psychotic episode this afternoon. and one yesterday too.
I was completely delusional and seeing and hearing people and things who werent there, and then it seemed like a sensible and rational idea to commit suicide.
I need to stop NOW because next time, I am going to die, or get very hurt, or hurt someone else. I hope to fucking god that I have the ability to stop using because after 8 months of treatment I'm still addicted.
I am fucking terrified that I'm going to kill myself.