Aw, firedeep Seems like you're going through some rough time right now. Don't be discouraged, I hope everything will turn out for the better.
I really appreciate all your informational posts about BO, especially the China BO reports, they're detailed and well-written. I found your "negativity" pretty amusing at times, but I also found it charming in a distinctive way. Like you know, it's so firedeep.
I'm sure no one here hates you, don't think like that. It's just that you're a Debbie Downer sometimes, and people usually prefer keeping things upbeat. If someone hates you over such trivial things on a message board, then it's not worth it to pay attention to them really. You're wanting to change that aspect of negativity though, and that's a good thing.
Again, I hope everything will be okay with you. Don't leave the forum, you're really a valuable member.